March, 2013

It’s March and my daughter is taking her first steps. As I watch her I hold my breath. She steps forward and forward and then falls onto her bare bottom. We clap for her and then she claps for herself too. Her proud smile reaches her ears. I think, oh baby, this is just the beginning.

Brisbane is a beautiful city. We spend days by the big river, walking across the man made beaches, under the flowering vines and spend hours in the library. Alba meets other children here and Papa reads her bird books from the grown up library. We both love seeing Alba happy.

One night I have a gallstone attack. It is the only pain I’ve ever felt that rivals childbirth. I had one in the mountains last year that lasted hours and I thought I might be dying. Back then I talked to my aunt and she told me it was common for the women in our family to have the attacks after pregnancy. I can’t breathe properly and my stomach is as hard as rock. I want it to end but I don’t know when it will. We drive to the hospital. The traffic is bad and time goes very slowly.

Soon after we arrive my lungs begin to open wider, bit by bit. And then like a sail caught in wind I can breathe full breaths again. It feels so incredible and blissful to be well and alive. I am told to get an operation on my gallbladder but the attack already seems miles away. A part of me feels grateful for the reminder of how good it feels to be well.

Every morning M goes for a run up the nearby mountain and Alba and I spend the morning together. For breakfast I make her scrambled organic eggs with lots of coconut oil (for good fats) and nutritional yeast (for b12) and I have chia & oat bircher with almond milk and fruit. When Papa is home we make green smoothies together (kale or spinach, squeezed orange juice & frozen banana). Now that we eat well food is a huge joy for us. Eating a piece of sorrel from the garden sends delicious shivers down my spine. Who would have known that I would one day find more pleasure in a big bowl of salad than an ice cream? Somehow now that we mostly only eat plants, nuts and seeds we eat more diversely than ever before.

We go on a little roadtrip to visit my grandparents. We have breakfast in their garden, picking fresh figs, persimmons and raspberries to eat. Afterwards we lay back on a picnic rug and teach Alba what a cloud is. We forget the camera, so we are careful to not let this memory slip away from us.

As I am picking the raspberries with Alba, I tell M “We need a big garden with strawberries and raspberries and blueberries and mulberries because I could never be unhappy if I had fresh berries to pick.”

We daydream about owning our own land every day. We talk about what we’ll grow and build and how we can live sustainably. I begin planning workshops, a photography book and an app so that these dreams can become life someday soon.

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  1. I found your blog this morning and was captivated by the images – You inspire me to pick up my camera and document more of my journey. I’d LOVE to hear some of what you’ve learned about photography and what makes your images so special. It’s clear your eyes are full of love and that’s what you are capturing. I’m grateful. Thank you for sharing….

  2. These are the most beautiful and peaceful pictures. All your capturing of the world around her will never allow you to miss or forget a moment.

  3. I’m so impressed by your photos. They look so emotionally and all tell a little story.
    So happy that I found a blog like yours !!

  4. Hi Nirrimi + family, your blog is the dreamiest I ever came across and I want to be like you when I grow up, haha (I’m 29). A question, is that a stainless steel drink bottle in the first picture? If yes, what brand is it and can I find it somewhere online?
    I wish you all the best of lives!

  5. alba is light, light and magic. just like your photographs are truly and utterly full of light.
    thank you for sharing. laura

  6. You have such a beautiful life! You inspire me.
    I know that you are not a food blogger, but i really would like to know something more about your food habits. Will you write something about it?

  7. This design is incredible! You obviously know how to keep a reader amused.
    Between your wit and your videos, I was almost moved to
    start my own blog (well, almost…HaHa!) Wonderful job.
    I really loved what you had to say, and more than that, how you presented it.
    Too cool!

  8. Hey Nirrimi, just thought i would say hi to see how you are doing and to let you know that your recent photos are absolutely gorgeous. Hope you are happy and well 🙂 xx janet

  9. I would buy your book, go to your workshop (wherever you do it) and download your app if that’s what it takes 😉

  10. On Children
    Kahlil Gibran

    Your children are not your children.
    They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.
    They come through you but not from you,
    And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

    You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
    For they have their own thoughts.
    You may house their bodies but not their souls,
    For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
    which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
    You may strive to be like them,
    but seek not to make them like you.
    For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

    You are the bows from which your children
    as living arrows are sent forth.
    The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
    and He bends you with His might
    that His arrows may go swift and far.
    Let your bending in the archer’s hand be for gladness;
    For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
    so He loves also the bow that is stable.

    dear Nirrimi, please remember these words of kalil gibrain.
    your little daugther will be always yours, because she is part of you.
    but there’s will be a time that she’ll try to growing up on her own way.
    of course you’re her mother, so her mentor. I know it’s difficult to see children growing up! we all would like that time could stop just in the sweetest moments.
    but your adventure is just at the beginning.
    just enjoy every moment, without anxiety, only with joy.
    with love.
    Cecilia

  11. I’ve been following your blog a little bit and have seen your photography for many years. It’s so cool to see your writing and photos about a familiar place to me! (I also live in Brisbane)

  12. I’ve been reading your adventures for almost three or four years. Your life seems amazing, you’re one of those people who seems to be able to make everything happen. You’re an inspiration, I’m really happy for you.

    Julia

  13. I cant belivie that I havent found you for less then 3 months ago,
    you fill my every-day-life with love. I long so for my own garden,
    just like you, but for the moment, i cant even see that vision.
    Apartments arent perfect for own berries and fruits.
    But all my love, to you, for what you give me.

  14. Whenever I read your posts and see the photographs of your little family, a tear always comes to my eye. It’s funny, I don’t know you personally, but I am so incredibly happy for you, M and Alba. You are all an inspiration to me.

  15. Your little Alba is so precious! She is one of the most beautiful little people I have ever seen and it’s wonderful seeing her grow and share this world with us. Your family is beautiful and best of luck with your health.

  16. Your blog is the most beautiful thing I’ve read… your photos capture exactly what your words so uniquely describe. It is a pleasure to come across such wonderment. I hope that stomach problems have passed.

    Rosie x

  17. I’ve never spoken a word on your blog before, not sure why, but I just want to let you know (like you don’t already) that you have the most beautiful, heart warming family. I’ve been an admirer of your photography & prose ever since you first started posting to DA and it’s been amazing to watch you grow into all of that talent. I love that you dive into your dreams and I hope you achieve everything you set out to accomplish.
    I know you will.

  18. My friend, Kimberley Allis, shared your site with me and I love it so much. 🙂 I am Canadian and moved here to Queensland to rebuild my life and be with my love on our little goat farm. 🙂 I share your desire to live off the land and as healthily and beautifully as possible. I’m working at it slowly as I try to get better from severe illness, and it makes me happy to see each little bit of progress. This morning it’s mint licorice tea with mint from my garden. 🙂 Wishing you much success in your endeavors so you can have your own piece of land very, very soon. 🙂

  19. Nirrimi, be sure you will reach all your dreams…you’ve started them once before, you’re living your life the best way it can be possible…love is sorrounding you every day, everywhere. You are so inspiring for so many people! All you give today, will come in a better way tomorrow. Thanks for be there!

  20. It’s so wonderful to see not just Alba but also Sommer growing up through your photos. She has such a glow to her recently.
    Thank you for sharing a bit about your passion for natural, plant-based eating. It’s clear that it’s a deeply important part of your lives and I always find it so inspirational. I’d love to see a marriage of your photos and recipes…
    xA

  21. Everytime I read your posts I have small tears in my eyes. I feel blessed to live in a world where my dreams actually exist in reality. I wish you and your family the best!

  22. You have amazing pictures, I love the sensitive atmosphere and the way I can feel it, almost touch it. And you wrote always so beautifully the text. Alba is so cute little girl, I bet and hope she’ll have a wonderful life. And I love berries, too, and the freshness from them. Once more, thank you these amazing moments I get by your pictures!

  23. I love reading your blog, you write about so pretty things. The way you describe your lives is truly amazing. I wish you and your family all good.

  24. What a beautiful life you live! I love that you turned your horrible experience with your gallbladder into a lesson in appreciating life. What a refreshing look at things. I love the photos as well! They’re all so happy and peaceful.

  25. Every time I read of your journeys I am transported from the noise and chaos of this very big city I live in, to a calming place of solitude. All things around me slip away into a dream and I feel as though I am along with you – an unseen traveler. Over and over again I allow these tiny moments of warmth to blanket me.

    One day, when I have children, I long to raise them in a world where greed and vanity aren’t prerequisites to everyday life. I want them to focus on the things that really matter – family.

    Thank you for sharing a little glimpse of your family – its beautiful. Glad to hear you’re better.

    -Kelly

  26. oh nirrimi. your blog and your pictures are just AMAZING! it´s wonderful your pictures speak to me with their wonderful light and they are so real and… i don´t know what to say just: WOOOW.
    how do you make the light and do you use photoshop often and much?
    i love to photograph to so i have a question 🙂 :
    what kind of object lenses do you use?

    PS: sorry for my english i´m from germany 😉
    I discovered you because of Joana Gröblinghoff – Lichtpoesie she´s wonderful to 🙂

  27. I adore fresh berries too. I can’t wait-it’s about to be the season for them here in Texas.

    Also I love that ginormous scrabble boardgame.

  28. I think I finally know what the big, huge feeling that I get from your texts and photos is. I am not completely sure about the specific feeling, but it definitely links to the life being good. Difficulties make people happy with the things that they have accomplished and remind people to appreciate the good moments. In spite of the heartbreaking difficulties live eventlually and inevitably is good.
    That is what it is, or that is a part of the feeling for sure. There are other things too, and I could name some of them, but that is the thing that was not clear to me first and I felt enjoyment because of understanding that. I do not know whether the feeling tells any truths but you’re a good reminder of what life can be. Thank you.

  29. These are such beautiful life affirming posts. I’ve been reading for a while now, and always look forward to an update. I’m sorry to hear you are having pain… rest easy, mama. This too shall pass.

  30. You pictures are most beautiful. I feel wanderlust – if I only I could see the beautiful view as you do. You are living the dream of many 😉

  31. Your days sound like they are passing beautifully…filled with beauty, love and happiness. Alba has grown so much since I first started following you all here. Children are such a miracle. What it must be to see the world through their eyes ~

    I have no doubt you will make all your dreams come true. Land with lots of berry bushes and room to roam will be yours one day. I can only imagine how wonderful how those stories will be…… xo

  32. nirimi … i absolutely love your blog, your family, your photography, your lifestyle … all of it! such an inspiration. and, alba is so precious and beautiful.

    i wanted to mention an all natural way i was able to get rid of my gallstones – i followed andreas moritz’s “amazing liver and galbladder flush” recipe and instructions from his book which got rid of all my stones after a series of monthly flushes. you can also used dr. hulda clark’s method – they are practically identical and are both all natural ways to avoid surgery and take care of your gallstones in the comfort of your own home.

    sending lots of love your way. thank you so much for sharing your life with us!!!

    xoxo

  33. Hi Nirimi,
    I am very sorry to hear of your pain.
    My brother knows a good osteopath at the Goldcoast. Did you ever tried? I have another painful problem with my stommach and the osteopath is the only one who can help me. I do not need any medication.
    If you like to try please do not hesitate to ask for the address. I can ask my brother who is living in Byron Bay and a photographer too.
    Beautiful pics as always and I can understand your happiness about the land and fresh berries to pick.
    It is part of my dreams too.
    Love, S

  34. I would love to read about your thoughts about photography!
    And these pictures are so incredible wonderful!! Your ability to capture valuable and beautiful moments is breathtaking!
    I’m very happy that you are now blogging more often!

    Many wishes from Germany!

  35. Your blog is breathtaking! I would be careful with coconut oil though – it’s high in saturated fats which isn’t very good for you.

  36. beautiful post, as always! i really love your writing. and it’s amazing to see alba grow. she is such a cute girl!
    by the way my favorite photo from this post is the one with the word cards! (:
    lovely greetings, maria

  37. yes you’re right, seing one’s child learning to walk is indeed a special moment. Of course, what follows is great to witness too, but those first 12 months are truly special as the whole of our lives is spent…walking and we cannot recall for ourselves how it was before. Alba is growing like a beautiful plant. It’s lovely to see, even from the other side of the screen. You are one lovely family. Thanks for sharing these beautiful pictures. Love and care sparkling all around you…

  38. I just discovered you and your beautiful family.
    I would like to know more about your eating habits, i’m vegetarian but i’m not very good at cooking and so i would like to learn new recipes!
    It would be great if you write a post about this (if you have time and you want to) :)!

    Sorry for my english, i’m italian and i’m trying to improve it :).

  39. WOW, you write so well! Beautiful pictures, also:) I would say a big YES to that photography book!! (you could also write some beutiful stories inside) Btw, I can see M has cut his hair, right? 🙂

  40. I love your photos. I think they show us you don’t need million dollars and big wardrobe full of Chanel to be happy. Just family full of love… 🙂 Really wonderful…

  41. beautiful words and pictures as always nirrimi. the words you speak for alba and the tenderness of your pictures of her (especially the one of her hugging you so closely) make me yearn a little bit to be a mother. thank you for sharing these pieces of your life.

  42. Brisbane seems like such a gorgeous place, I know what you mean about a bowl of salad being more exciting than a bowl of ice cream. Sometimes when Summer comes around again I will eat a peach or a strawberry and think “Now how could anything be better than this.”

  43. I love reading your journeys, they’re always so beautiful and inspiring. I love the pictures of Alba in her white coat with animal ears- that’s super cute!

  44. Nirrimi ~ you are the brightest fire, you are a golden wild haired wondercreature. Everything you do fills me up with hope and inspiration. The things you make are sparklers of beauty and warmth and hope ~ they are so simple, they are so POWERFUL. I often have the most beautiful adventures all by my self, but because of you, I have learned to capture them, with words and cameras and mason jars, and to share them with the people who are close to me and the far away strangers. I’ve found so much joy and power in it. I’ve never met you, and I am on a far away part of the earth, but I feel what you do, like litte fireflies in my tummy that make me go and go. I can’t tell you how often you’ve made me cry little pearls ~ when the feelings are so big they don’t fit in my body anymore. I dearly sincerely hope that your little family is always protected, and that all your wishes come true forever and that you guys just keep being what you are ~ because it is radiant.

  45. It’s incredible that you’re living in Brisbane! Hope you’re enjoying it here. If you need any advice on things to do locally that are fun, I’m a local that lives in New Farm and knows pretty much all there is about the tiny splendours that are hidden about. I’m 18 and have a 4 year old brother, so I know a few things about fun things for kids to do too. Also, here’s a film photo I took about 3 years ago from just down my street, back when the riverwalk was still afloat http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5265/5698761186_e3af36f13b_b.jpg

    Kind regards, Claudia

  46. I love reading your blogs. I’m the same age and also a young mother, and it makes me so happy when I read the words you write for alba, as I feel this exact same way but am never able to put them into words. You are inspiring.

  47. I can’t even begin to express how peaceful your writing makes me feel. This blog and everything that it stands for is such a huge inspiration.

  48. These are wonderful photos, Alba is beautiful. I am hoping you are feeling better! Other than that, life seems lovely for you! Eating healthy does truly feel better! Thank you for sharing!

    xoxo
    Juliette Laura
    juliettelaura.blogspot.com

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